"The Straightest Show About Musicals Ever Podcast" - Starring Two Autistic Millennial Men Who Each Have Their Own Special Interests
My straight autistic man friend and I (also pretty autistic, if not slightly more autistic than the other autistic man, just in different ways) might be starting a musical podcast. Well, actually, it's a video podcast. A video log. Our video logs will be me recording my friend and I watching a musical over discord. The recording will be in sexy 176x144 3GP video pulled straight from my Nokia 6131 and fixed with trusty ffmpeg. We will review all of my friend's favorite musicals. He has several hundred Broadway songs memorized by heart and can recite them at any time. He knows in depth trivia about your favorite shows. You get to watch musicals with us - in 144p! ....if either of us actually decide to actually do it lol. Btw, the rest of this was written while I was high. Proceed at your own risk - witness silliness mixed with raw feelings that I'm trying to sort out.
Notes about being really autistic and frustrated.
Honestly, being autistic and wild is my natural state. Wagecucking is no fucking fun most of the time. Like, yeah, sometimes you'll get a cool problem at your job or you'll get to do some project work, that's fun, yeah. But 90% of the time jobs suck. I wish I could do cool internet stuff like making zines and videos and blog posts all day. Fuck, thinking of doing a patreon at some point if I can't calm down. There are just so many fun projects I want to do and my job is in the damn way. It's too much fucking time I have to sacrifice, and it's not what I want to be doing. I'm a creator. I make stuff. Creator is such a fucking cringe title, but it's also very true. I don't want to just do "ironic, look at me be a hipster" stuff, or just do tutorials, or just experiments - I want to create. But I want to create for myself. Not all men (I say men because saying man instead of human sounds obnoxiously masculine, in an ironic in funny way - the same way someone would say that they were super straight, but like ironically super straight, not in a serious way) - ahem- are allowed to create whenever they wish. Man, this must hurt to read. We are only allowed to create in the meager free time granted to us by our stingy American employers - companies with executives and admin staff who work at home so they can pretend to work.
Maybe I should become a bullshit worker who doesn't actually work 40 hours a week. Ha!! Not at my shitty helpdesk job. I have to wage cuck all 8 to 9 hours a day - fully alert because this fucking place can't plan for shit. Why am I letting myself get so lazy? I need to get a better job that won't stress me out as much. I'm so fucking burnt out that when I get home I just want to get high and either beat myself up for not doing the homework (idk why I'm even doing online school at this point) I've neglected, or for the youtube channel I've neglected, or the zines I'm working on, who are also sadly neglected (sorry for not doing the contest, it's just too late in the month) - or for the friends I neglect while logging out of discord for several days at a time. Fuck, I hate that I can't hang with cool people unless I use discord, but I also don't like being logged in and getting notifications. I get that I could just turn notifications off, but the thought of being logged into discord is terrified. I don't like being super interactive while I'm getting too high because my job is mentally and emotionally draining, and it's making me feel like shit. Also not doing my school stuff (again, embarrassing on my part, I'm paying for it) is making me feel like shit. A lot of things are making me feel like shit. My brother being an asshole to people is making me feel like shit. My mom and sisters worrying the fuck out of me is making me feel like shit. I worry for my wife, for my friends - but also a lot about myself. Like it's kind of a dick move to worry about myself as much as I do, but damn I'm living a very dumb, weird life and I enjoy making art, whatever your definition of art is, a lot. I'm not ashamed of this wacky post that I wrote while higher than I should be off of cheap Michigan weed. It's what I'm feeling and, soon, it will be what I felt. There are going to be a lot of things that I'm going to feel or have felt, going forward.
That said, there is a non zero chance that at least a one person (prolly a dude) has touched themselves to the sound of my YouTube videos. You're cool to do that. But could you pay me? Binx from Fishtank has simps that buy her thousands of dollars of amazon wishlist items. Where are my simps? My biggest video is about me making fun of paypigs as a concept (which is real), but I kind of wish I had my own paypigs. Unironically. Who wouldn't mind the extra attention and cash? For every one of my videos that you've.... it to, please kindly tip that video $5 or more (delivery fee, if I delivered). Fuck. I just need to get Burt (congrats on winning Burt!) or some wild person like that to pay me money so that I can tell my job to go fuck itself. If it takes coomerbaiting in the future, this weird looking nerd will do it. Fuck working. Also, I realize some of this slang, like coomer, coomerbait, gooner or paypig, is something that not everyone is hip to. I'd like to think most readers still got the gist.
Videos that I want to do and might
christcuck app
Advanced Profanity Filter is fucking crazy in a fun way. It's FOSS and can make even ol' /pw/ readable. I'm gonna put christcuck in the title because it's funny. I have a lot of friends that are religious. This is more just trying to be funny and getting viewer attention.
chapel roan swiftie
Prolly a short about pretending to be a Swiftie at work while trying to steer the conversation toward Chappell Roan. That's how it is. :D
indie web 1.1 - You Can (Not) Make Part 2 indie web 1.1.22 indie web 1.1.23
These Indie Web videos will continue to increment closer and closer - but not quite there - to the number 2. Indie Web 2 will need lore and a build. It's like how Kingdom Heart has all of those terrible portable games in between the actually good console Kingdom Hearts releases.
steve's simps
Patreon video??? (prolly not lol)
I should probably add this, too. And sorry if this is too harsh, or if it comes off too harsh. I like calling things autistic and calling neurotypical people autistic. I like calling my cats autistic. My 'tism has made life harder. It's made my friends' lives harder - so I tend to not give a fuck how anyone else uses it. Feel free to disagree and I won't dislike you or anything. It's just my preference. Moot saying /jp/ had weaponized autism at that con a decage ago... that shit is still funny to me personally. "You can show that in a Christian Manga", that shit is still funny. Patrice O'Neal (probably an unpopular opinion here tbh) is still really funny. The year is still 2012, and I'm filming stuff with a flipphone like it's 2007... and I'm browsing websites that look like they were from 2002 lolol. Love it. Being weird fucking rules. Commenting on how high I am sounds pretty Gonzo (Gonzo journalism is just regular journalism with more drugs and less employer provided health insurance options). People like the Gonzo. Ok, so I'm more manic high than I was the depressed kind of high that a was when I started writing. I'm prolly gonna take a shower now. I take like 2 a day. One in the morning to be less depressed, and another in the evening to be less depressed. Also sensory reasons. This is a fucked up blog. I hope to make more fucked up stuff, maybe full time. Steve Rambo, the gay pornstar whose name I've held hostage with my hopes and dreams, he was a real one. Hilarious, but I guess he did his job well. He made dudes bust for money. Maybe it's fate that I do the same. I want the kind of simps that egirls get. I, personally, do not think that I am simp-able irl... but is my voice? I can do a lot of shit with my voice. I spend more time doing wacky stuff with my voice than most people do working out. Idk maybe I'm what's considered "DILF core" now that I'm in my 30s. (also this is a joke, please don't actually get off to my videos. I'm pretty high rn and I just wanna write the word penis over and over again because it's funny).
Using Ctrl+Shift+Left Arrow to move around through text just feels so fancy. Just Ctrl+Left feels just as cool. Same goes for a good Alt+Space then a Down Arrow key twice followed by the Enter key then holding down the Right Arrow key to get a window back on screen. :) Fuck, I need to get off Windows, but it has some really comfy parts. I like adding registry entries to stuff. It's such a cluster fuck and more fun than config files. Scoop has better package availability than a lot of ditros. I know Flatpaks are a thing, and they're cool, but they're also fucking huge. And XCursor fucking sucks. I can't wait for the winner of the Wayland Cursor format war to replace it. Imagine if you didn't have to manually set hotspots in config files when making custom cursors and you could open up something like Real World Cursor Designer but on Linux. People like GUIs. Actually, I fucking love GUIs. I like to click. That's why I like artsy static sties.